While I tend to be an Optimist regarding most things when it Comes to other People, I am a Doom-predictor when it Comes to myself.
Every Little sign that People might dislike me, that things will not go well, that the WORLD IS ENDING… Now, of course there are plenty of psychologically fascinating explanations for this behavior, but suffice to say that I KNOW I am a worrier and an overthinker, and I am unlikely to Change.
That doesn’t mean I can’t laugh about it.
My Office here in Germany is fairly small, around 12 People, and I work in a small Team with 3 men and 1 woman. All the other People are women.
For obvious reasons, I spend most time with my Team, including having lunch with them. Which I did today as well.
Just as I finished lunch, I noticed that all the other women in the Office were Standing by the door ready to go somewhere.
Off they went, and my immediate assumption was that they were going out to lunch. Together. And no one had asked me.
Cue teary eyes and bitter thoughts. I stewed for a Little while, then decided “Screw them!”.
Just as I came to that realization, People started dropping back in.
Two People went to the kitchen to eat a salad they had bought.
One had bought a new shampoo and showed it off.
Another one had gone to the pharamcy.
And so on und so weiter.
Leaving me Feeling plenty of righteous Indignation all for nothing.
(pardon the hideous writing, writing this from the German Office Keyboard.)